Archive for December 8th, 2006
favour
a favour is difficult to return…
a significant number of friends did me a favour recently,
i feel obliged to return them a favour.
but how do you return a favour?
this evening, i tried returning a friend a favour.
in the end, it became a disfavour to someone else…
and so, i withdrew my favour…
i can’t please everyone,
but i chose to please the more important one…
being pushed away is (i duno what to write here).
so (whatever is above) that i loitered around,
only returning home at (time)…
where i was doesn’t matter…
what i was doing doesn’t matter either…
yes, i’m a girl and i know i shouldn’t hang out at such times…
i’m also sober enough to know that being pushed away means i’m not wanted anymore…
no?
oh well, who cares…
my world just crumbled…
but life still goes on…
let the sky fall and land on me ;
let the sky fall and suffocate me ;
let the sky fall and kill me…
i’m dying inside…
i just learnt a lesson,
the hard way -
a favour is the worst thing to owe someone,
anyone…
my mind’s a blank…
i’m gonna try to sleep now,
i’m tired…
let me sleep and never wake up,
so that i won’t feel tired again…
take care world…
I AM UNCONTACTABLE…
i am dead…
